I thought love was something I had to prove I deserved. I didn’t realize it was an endless assignment. I kept carrying more water, hoping that eventually I would have poured enough into someone else to finally receive the love I was trying so desperately to earn. But I was asking someone for water when they were thirsty too.

Now I understand: someone else’s inability to hold what I offer does not determine its value. I don’t have to pour myself empty to prove that I am lovable. I am worthy before I ever pour a drop.

For a long time, I thought love meant carrying more.

Understanding more.
Forgiving more.
Trying harder.
Stepping in before someone fell.

But somewhere along the way, I learned that love and rescue are not the same thing.

Rescue says, “You cannot do this without me.”

Love says, “I believe you can.”

I can offer a hand, a light, a truth, a boundary, a place to rest. But I cannot do someone else’s becoming for them.

I want to be the lighthouse now.

Steady.
Rooted.
Bright enough to help someone find their way.

But still trusting them to steer.